I can't sleep because I drank too much coffee today. Typical. I figured I would put my restlessness to good use and update the blog! Hopefully I still have some people who check it every once in a while- people other than my mother. HOLLA JILL!
This summer I have been living at home while I wait for the new lease on my apartment to start. I move in to the new apartment next week, and as my time back at my parents house winds to an end I can't help but think we are both ready for me to get the hell out. Kind of kidding. My parents are pretty chill, and I am way harder to live with than they are. My moms the patron saint of dealing with Libby antics, and me moving home has been testing her sainthood. Kind of kidding- again. I am very grateful to have people who support me the way my parents do. HOLLA PAUL AND JILL!
As I wrote earlier I have a tendency to way over do the caffeine. I am constantly teetering on too little and too much. Finding the sweet spot of balance is not an easy task for me. I hope this is a flaw I learn to correct in the near future because I would love to be a functioning adult rather than a toss up between an exhausted indoor cat, or a shaky irritable troll. Caffeine fueled restlessness has led me to prepare for moving. I have been working on packing my room to move into the apartment. I've decided to minimize my wardrobe as I pack. I have so many articles of clothing that a grown ass 23 year old woman simply shouldn't own. I don't know why I hold on to clothing and attach such sentimental value to things, but I have to let some things go. I finally had the internal debate to throw away my Justin Bieber Purpose Tour shirt. I was a Bieleber when I was 15, and part of me deep down thinks I still could be? Most likely not, so I think I will toss my old haggard (the letters are all faded and the arm pit is busted) JBiebes shirt and move on to a more simplistic wardrobe. As I simplify my wardrobe I also feel more inclined to toss out my clutter. I love things that collect dust. My theory is that as I get rid of junk I don't really need, I will find it easier to keep my life organized. AND IT ONLY TOOK ME 23 YEARS TO FIGURE IT OUT. The major issue I have had with decluttering is my love and addiction for scrolling through Amazon. I feel like the Little Mermaid when she searched through the ocean for thingamabobs (spoons), as I search through the Amazon for thingamajigs (shit I don't need). If you don't have an Amazon, good for you. You're probably a healthier human than I. It is so easy to hop on to that sight just to browse, and the next thing you know you have over $100 worth of junk in your cart just waiting to sit on a shelf in your apartment. I should probably read some self help books on how not to impulse shop when I'm bored or can't sleep. Maybe someone can guide me to the light, that is not making poor Amazon purchases. Or maybe I am finally growing into adulthood where you start making more intentional purchases to better your life, rather than browsing grilled cheese toasters when intoxicated. Fingers crossed 23 is the year I grow up.
Sorry this blog was so short! I just wanted to write a little while I took a break from sorting through my life, clothes, amazon cart, books, etc.
-The Big Libowski
Libby Anne Groseclose